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Happiness Isn't Good Enough For Me! I Demand Euphoria!

by KiLL THE BATS

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1.
Those years ago You didn't know my know my name Sun was shining on you like glass out of place You got in my eyes, I had no idea How boring you were How different you would be after you shattered and stole the best parts of me Remember when I took you away back when you spent all your time talking shit I remember those evenings so well How you'd concern yourself with anything, oh you'd be so mean Do you ever stop to think about what you left me with? Because baby it was exhaustion. I gave you all I could possibly give and you took it all for granted The songs and melodies, the culture that was home to me and somewhere to sleep whenever the tears would come But you just left me crying
2.
Oh I saw you, I was blown away I just could not believe you were walking towards me, I knew exactly which way my heart would face, should I be broken down again She showed no mercy A soulless monster, her heart was empty Her grip on my throat and a zig zag of aches down my back I'm gripping nothing while she slipped through the cracks Oh I loved the way she held me close, but I drained myself dry loving her the most, and when she decided to cut right out on me You showed up, and you're just what I need She showed no mercy A soulless monster, her heart was empty Her grip on my throat and a zig zag of aches down my back I'm gripping nothing while she slipped right through the cracks
3.
I can taste your bitterness toward me on the back of my tongue each night I can drown you out with each my hollow lies I know I could let you down, I see the fear in your eyes that I'll rip your heart out, light it on fire and watch you cry You fell for me, you fell over the passenger side where she once sat but where you now spend most of your nights oh I stopped falling and the swaying of your voice to mine She left me incapable, she left me a fucking wreck inside It's not like the night we met (What's wrong with me) I just wasn't ready yet (There's gotta be) I never meant to leave you upset (A reason I treated you) I spent too many nights in your bed (Like she treated me) She left me fucking torn apart I never meant to break your heart I don't know how to let you down That's why I haven't been around I can taste your bitterness toward me, you now it was never right those tiny dorm room mattresses weren't designed for you and I oh I stopped falling but with your hips press to mine I wonder how I sleep at night
4.
Get your smile out of your holster where you keep it while I wipe them cobwebs away. You must have left some smiles in your corner here where I've been spending most of my days shoulder your anger, holster your bitterness While I'm aching through exhaustion Your smile used to greet me through my window here but you turned me away Your bobby pins line my dresser And my eyes are so heavy these days I've been losing sleep quickly Trying to remember your smile pressed against my face I've been exhausted, I have exhausted all hope
5.
BEES?! 04:10
Do they see me in their dreams? Like they show up in mine night after night? Maybe faint memories? I've exhausted all hope of making things right When I wake up I'm reaching for one of the three of them I dreamt we were all still in love But I know I'll let them down again You were so great You really lit up the stage Would you like to have one more dance with me? What tears you down Comes back around And the ride home is so exhausting It's one and two and three and four The girl of my dreams, I fucked over Seems I'm dreaming differently each night. What tears you down comes back around I really was the monster each time Do they miss my embrace The way they've haunted my dreams Maybe in this place They are so much stronger than me Loathsome me, reaching for the world It's so exhausting yearning for a different girl
6.
How can you still tear me up after you robbed me blind? I hope the thought tears you up. I hope now I've stolen all the sleep from your nights battered bones not so remote, not even two years ago I broke down at Calero Lake, you stole my home from me, you leveled San Jose I rebuilt Mcbain from the street up with broken pieces you forgot I found under your bed after you left heartbreaking trinkets that dance willow glen I saw you dancing on the ave you thought you were free, didn't you? I saw you and I never want to see you again How can you still haunt me? How am I still haunted my the things you said? Because you've made me a monstrosity and I had no idea what had happened sometimes I still fall asleep on the bed you left, but now I feel like a goddamn fool My city told me what you did while you were gone, you thought I wouldn't find out, didn't you?
7.
Pay no attention to the man behind the fabricated curtain His seams are sewn with fabric lies while cutting ties from his means to an end You came all this way and you trusted him But he let you down and now you have to begin again He's sorry I know he is For every broken hearted person that ever had a grip on something I found myself in that same place We've all felt the same way. We are all liars it's our saving grace Just romanticize the same old shit again and again I'm sorry sweetheart Can you find it amongst yourself to be forgiving I'm not sorry sweetheart Honestly you were the worst thing that happened to me You saw him he must have seemed so fascinating cause you let him seep into your thoughts and take up space and you fell for him while he slipped further away cause it was bad for him "A handsome devil and a son of a bitch"
8.
Jack + Chill 04:13
She called me a "son of a bitch" in her dorm room "I'm falling in love with you, how could you leave?" How could I, after what I've been through? She made me feel better under false pretenses "I was the worst thing that happened to you" I said We are all looking for somebody, to give our mind and bodies to because we're young and naive Those dips in her neck, a new place to rest, someone else's bed but they deserve so much better than me I was looking for somebody, I'm so sorry I used you She boarded a train, across the west coast, up towards Seattle There's nothing left in San Jose After my last breakup, I haven't been able to settle down and I don't find enjoyment in anything Underneath our orange streetlights She called me a handsome devil I must have smiled like a goddamn fool it made me feel better and I hate that I used you
9.
I don't like endings darling But I like pet names and devastation and feeling like I'm alive And tonight I feel like I'm tearing up every inch of my skin but When I wake up in the morning I'll be fine Winter here is nothing compared to the coldness of you Frozen bones break easy With the leverage of that smile you do, and I've spent ages mending And aching with your blankets And fighting my demons one at a time and I've finally realized It's just gonna get worse before it gets any better Have you ever wanted someone Eyes shine brighter than our California winter sun To warm up these frozen sheets That froze over after she left me I've got demons haunting she never said why she was leaving said she wasn't happy Then vanished completely But I'll do you one better Next time you are morose find your demons and hold them close and when you let them go They will know who is in control
10.
I used to write you poems when I awoke before you about the way you laid perfectly still, how you barely moved when I kissed you goodbye every morning and about how still you made me feel When I'm hurt like I am right now It's hard to want anything else But a girl to keep an eye on me I used to make you breakfast And care for you in sickness and in health I wasted so much time feeling sorry for myself But the sadness will last forever I wanna say something profound I wanna do something someone will give a shit about Someone to be proud of me I can't look at her pictures without singing I really feel like we could have something, if she'd give me the time of day cause I've exhausted all hope of ever getting back to To those years ago when you didn't know my name.

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Recorded, produced, mixed, and mastered sporadically at
District Recorders in San Jose, CA by Ryan Perras during February, March, and July of 2014.

This album is dedicated to William Chris Bragg.

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released December 27, 2014

On this recording, Kill The Bats was:
Eddie Han - guitar
Michael Bragg - bass / vocals
Jaake Margo - vocals / lyrics
Russ Wood - guitar / vocals
Willem Bowman - drums

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